Lonesomeness :( (I know that's not actually a word haha)

Hey guys, listening to this song right now (the Winnie the Pooh "Wherever You Are" song): Going to try not to make this blog too depressing but, truth is, I'm feeling really lonely now I'm at uni, losing old friends now I'm not at school and failing to make new friends. So I'm going to talk about it, cause I'm missing deep chats with my friends, so I'll have to have a one-sided one with the internet instead haha. So yeah, never thought I'd miss school, but I am lost without it.. Cause it was there that I got to see all (or most of) my friends, five days a week, nowadays I hardly ever see them, I simply don't have time, and to tell you the truth, it makes me cry myself to sleep some nights cause I miss them that much, that security, that feeling of acceptance, where nobody judged me, and everyone just accepted me as the weirdo that I am. I mean, I wasn't popular at school, nowhere near, but I had a really close group of friends, the best friends I could ever wish for. People accepted me, had the same sense of humour, the same interests, were nerdy like me.. They were like my soulmates (you still are guys, don't worry - apologies for the cheesiness). But so far at uni, I've only one person (and her friend) who seem at all like me.. They're lovely, they both like Harry Potter and we have a laugh at stupid jokes. I was texting her tonight, in fact, which made me feel a bit better. Apart from that, though, I thought I was making headway in terms of making friends, but apparently I was mistaken. You see, last Tuesday we had a lecture in a different building from usual, about a 15 minute walk away and, afterwards, my friend who I've know for four years and is at uni with me, just left, taking all but one of our (though apparently actually not my) friends away with her, and sat in a different place for lunch so we couldn't even find them.. This sort of ditching has now become a regular thing, along with a regular highlighting of how weird I am, and exaggerating things to make me seem like I'm a horrible person. And everyone just seems to gravitate towards her compared to me, so I have no chance. And all the rest of my friends seem to be disappearing now that we've all moved on to different places. So yeah, sorry, I failed at the not making it depressing, but I feel a bit better having let it out :) Love, as always, Emily x